Satan,You Suck!
>> 11 June 2010
Well that's not entirely true. The job would be perfect for me. Perfect if I could flash forward three years.
Every once in a while I'm sent e-mails by the school. OK more like every single day, several times a day. I barely noticed this one. Internship. Great pay- Like incredible pay. Even better than what I sold my soul for when I worked for the Evil Corporation that must not be named.
I applied on a lark. I always keep a current resume and cover letter just in case. Imagine my surprise when they called me in for an interview. I already knew I didn't want the job before I ever stepped in their front doors and interviewed accordingly.
Of course they loved me. If I didn't fit this position, I'd probably fit that one.
The only problem, not including the 45 minute commute- They want a work drone. Someone committed to working 60+ hours a week. Up at 11:00 to talk to Belgium, up again at 5:00 to talk again to the East coast. You know- I could do it too. If not for one thing. The kids.
I can't do it to them again. I just can't.
I can't go back to being the absent parent. It's bad enough they only have one. At least I can be the best one I can be. Hey I justified it last time around. Had to make a living. Had to support my kids.
I can't go back to working 50 to 80 hours a week. I won't. Not right now.
In three years sure- when the youngest leaves for college- Corporate World I'm all yours. More hours at work than at home. Bring it on. I wrote this last month. I still believe it. So thanks evil tempter. But I have to believe the right job is around the corner. I truly believe this in my heart. My Heart- the same place the belief I will someday wear my high school jeans lives.
2 comments:
Been there and done that with the work drone situation. Now? Im like,"sorry people, I have a family and a life outside of this place" .. like my dad once told me.... when you die they arent going to be reading your resume at your funeral.
This is obviously a very personal decision, but one that deserves congratulation. I've heard parents say they'd do anything for their kids and I think they really mean GET anything for their kids.
Money and time make up the dimensions and the decision criteria is simple in nature and yet so difficult to practice as you point out here. Again, hats off to you for standing your ground and going against the grain of what "sacrifice" is supposed to mean.
If you haven't read it, you might appreciate this post by Ben Casnocha highlighting the juxtaposition between family and calling: http://ben.casnocha.com/2010/03/do-you-want-a-family-or-a-calling.html#comments
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