Wishes
>> 02 March 2011
The Man-child has asked to go into the city this weekend. By himself. Well, with friends of course. But no adult supervision. They want to go to a concert and stay in a youth hostel.
It's a tough call. Sure he's 18. Sure I want him to have all these grown-up experiences. It's time. On the other hand- he's a new driver. In San Francisco. With the bridges and the hills and the traffic. In San Francisco. By himself. With four other barely 18 boys.
The mommy inside me is screaming NOOOOOOO. The Mom- the one that doesn't want her kid to grow up to be Jeffrey Dahmer...wants to him to have grown-up experiences.
It's not often I regret being a single mom. For the most part it's not that bad. It's not easy by any means but really not that bad. But when situations like this come up...one where I'm terrified about making the right choice. This is when I want a husband. But not just any husband. I want a Parenthood husband. One who's loving and sweet and goes down on one knee and swears he will never, never cheat on me. Not like that icky Crosby. Yuck.
2 comments:
Think of it this way: Jeremy Renner went to San Fransisco around that age, ended up playing Jeffery Dahmer in a movie, and just took his Mom to the Oscar's for the 2nd time in 2 years... I'm sure she felt the same way you do, letting him leave Modesto for the 'city.'
Even though her son "turned into Dahmer," I'm sure she wouldn't go back and change anything for the world! ;)
(does any of that argument make sense/change your perspective?)
Good luck with this one!
The Narcissist is 18 now too. He wants to go to Panama City Beach with friends for spring break. I now feel all sorts of conflicted. 4 other parents have already said yes. WTF is it about me that makes me tremble in fear at the thought? Oh yeah, knowing what I would do if it were ME there.......and knowing he is a lot like me. *ugh*
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